| this is by far the worst thing i have ever written |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|08:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
moments shared
glances stolen
secrets told
my heart was broken
wait a second
let's rewind
start at the beginning
go back in time
when we met a friendship
immediately formed
as i got to know you
i found i wanted something more
but there were many obstacles
standing in the way
it seemed impossible
yet the feelings stayed
i was bold
and i was brave
confessed my love
hoping for the best
and you put me to the test
we had our week
i'll never forget
the deep conversations
awaiting the late phone calls
our hockey game
how i thought
you felt the same
then it stopped
all at once
this emotional roller coaster
found it's drop
but somehow it seemed to get better
i assumed i'd gone crazy
and thought you were going to save me
you had everyone convinced
that you were interested in me too
part of me believed
but another part knew
and still doubted you
i had some unanswered questions
too terrified to ask them myself
so instead i got some help
she did it
and i got the answers to my fears
sadly
it wasnt what i wanted to hear
you dont like me like "that"
or so you say
but something isnt right
why are you pushing me away?
all these broken dreams
you dont realize what you've done
how could i have been so ignorant
to think something had begun
it sickens me to know
you never cared at all
when you knew how i felt
yet you still let me fall
upon my face there is
a smile plastered on
i ignore the pain
that swells within
and act like nothing's wrong
you see right through me
you are not fooled
i am to think
you cannot see
the pain that consumes my eyes
but you go on
living your exciting life
if you listen closely
you'll hear the knife
that's piercing my heart
wait why do you look so sad?
do you now realize
what we could have had?
now i'm lying on the floor
and my soul is dead
i wish i could make you see
all the tears you made me shed
but now it's too late
i dont want your sympathy
but if you have a guilty conscience
good...
because it's NOTHING
compared to what you've done to ME. |
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| i'm so lost. |
[May. 10th, 2004|10:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  helpless | ] |
i want to call you
but i can't.
i get the courage
and pick up the phone
i even dial your number
but when my thumb hits the send button
all these negative thoughts fill my head.
HER, and the fact that she may be in your life again
and maybe i'm just a joke from the past
a nuisance that you wish you could sweep out of your life.
i chicken out and wish
that you would call me.
but the phone never rings
and i wait
listening to nothing but silence.
hearing only the beat
of my broken heart. |
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